Forget and Not Slow Down

“I’d rather forget and not slow down
Than gather regret for the things I can’t change now
If I become what I can’t accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch
Pour over me and wash my hands of it

It’s time to decide
Which is out of my mind
Cause it’ll be me unless I put some thoughts to rest and leave some faults behind
I’ll watch the glint in my eye
Shine off the spring in my step
And could be blinding depending on the amount of you that I reflect

Cause I could spend my life just trying to sift through
What I could’ve done better but what good do what ifs do”

-Relient K, Forget and Not Slow Down

I need to move forward and look to God. I’ve forgotten Him amidst all the crap I’ve gone through and selfishly made my life and the things in it seem like the only thing that mattered.  It’s like right now, to me, everything that has been happening seems like the end of the world. And really, it isn’t. Read the book of Revelations and you’ll see what the end of the world is like. I don’t know why I can’t just move on.  People come and go, but God will always be here for me. I keep forgetting that. I mean, imagine being there for someone all the time and seeing them forget you, take you for granted, and abandon you.  I don’t think I would stick around for very long, I’d be mad and annoyed, in fact.  But God loves us unconditionally, no matter how many times we stray and how far we run.  Always with open arms and the love of a father.

It’s almost my fifth “rebirth” birthday from being baptized on November 14, 2004.  I gotta get my act together. Can’t be labeled a Christian without living like one.  That’s not who I want to be. I don’t want to be a hypocrite.

With a love too great for words, I don’t see why and how I can take that for granted. I feel like I remember once in a while when church has a “cry event”, then I forget the next day or the next week, that easily.

Geez Channing, remember already.

Bring restoration to my soul.